Have you ever had one of those moments when you question everything in your life??? Like, What am I doing? What have I done? What matters? Why am I not happy? Why doesn't anything make sense? Do I matter? well of course I matter.... but how? why? where? am I going to fail? What will people think or find when I die?
Maybe I'm crazy... maybe it's normal but then again maybe it's definitely NOT normal!!! Do you ever cry for no reason? and then once you're crying you just start thinking about all the awful painful hurtful things in your life and so you keep crying and you cant stop and then you feel sorry for yourself and you're blinded to the good things or the love or the blessings..... there is a lot of bad... and that's all you see.... I do this... every once and a while I do this.... and I hate it... but at the same time I love it... I just wanna sit sometimes and list out the bad things.. like once I see how ridiculously long the list is it will help me justify so much...
So many people have so many more bad things... I know I'm blessed.... I'm surrounded with good things... but sometimes Im blinded... I can't help that... or can I?
